i know my life's pretty messed up right now.
i know nothing's even going in the right direction right now in my life.
i look back at everything, and i see how much i screwed up.
but hey.
guess what.
i don't regret. even though it hurts a lot.
but as long as i'm not beaten, i won't give up. as long as it doesn't kill me, i'll keep going on. as long as i have breath in this body, i'll keep fighting.
no matter how many dead ends i face, i'll keep walking. because dead ends are merely roads which have died out, leaving no path to follow. and so from there i'll make my own path.
no matter how many obstacles i face, i'll keep perservering. because these obstacles merely strengthen - they aren't here to put us down, in fact they build us up. and from this i'll get stronger.
these scars, wound, scabs, burns, cuts... they do still hurt. they hurt as much as everyone else does - i'm only human. but i'm not going to allow myself to wallow in self-pity.
because i found true joy in amidst all these pain, because He was standing right beside me all along. He was always there to comfort me, to protect me and most of all, to love me. without Him, i think i would've died. and that's why my screwed up life is simply so perfect.
i love you Jesus.